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I write short journal entries about everything and nothing, unedited and raw. They're collected here.

I have an overactive immune system, which is great if you want your body to fight off bad things, but less so when you’re in pain. According to medical professionals, this is the reason why painkillers have little to no effect on me, unless they’re really strong, which is something I just can’t pick up at the local pharmacy without a prescription. Getting a prescription would mean going to a doctor, explaining that I’m not actually a junkie, and do a bunch o tests. I really don’t want to do that, and in the end I’d probably come out empty handed anyway.

So when I’m in pain, like I was yesterday and am today, I barrel through unaided. It’s my neck that hurts, and it’s tiring, but I’ll manage, massage it. What else am I going to do?

Crazy meeting week commences. Glad it’s over soon. I just wish I had something fun to share. Not just there yet, but at least there’s progress.

I am happy to hear about my friend’s engagement, so a shout-out to him and his (surely) lovely bride to be.

The heatwave is getting to me. It’s typically Swedish to complain about the weather, either it’s too hot or it’s too cold. Or both, depending on your temperament, I guess. The past week or so has been hot, and it’s having an impact on my sleep. For the worse, I might add. On the other hand, at least the sun is out, and that brings joy in itself. Am I complaining? If I am, then that’s okay. That’s typically Swedish too.

Marathon meeting day. Meeting marathon day. Day of marathon meetings? No, that last one definitely doesn’t work. What my sleepy brain is trying to convey, through my equations imprecise fingers, is that I have a metric shit-ton of meetings today. Wake me when this day is over, please.

Remember that secret project that I didn’t know what to do with, that gave me so much angst? Well, it was on (another) short hiatus, up until now, before I decided to just go with it. So there’ll be an announcement in the near future. Today marks the 101st update, looking to do another 99, bringing the total published things to 200. Congratulations if you figured out what the project is, otherwise you’ll know soon enough.

It still worries, nay, bothers me, still outside of my comfort zone, but still – trying new things is good for you. So that’s your lesson for today, kids: Try something new.

This has been the first weekend on my own in a long time. Granted, I did go out for drinks on Friday, but other than a Skype session with Malin yesterday, I’ve not spoken a word to anyone. Today won’t be too different from that, I believe.

I don’t mind being alone. I believe more people should be alone more often, take some time off their partners, kids, and the constant feeling of having to Do Something. Being alone is not the same thing as being lonely. However, it is something a lot of people seem to have forgotten how to be, and that they need.

So give it a go, when you get the chance. Just you, and no demands, for a couple of hours.

For those of you keeping tabs of my sub-journaling of current events, yes, the deadline was met and I can cross off one more thing on my list of shit that needs to happen or I’ll lose my mind. Naturally this lead to talks about the future with involved parties. Sorry, I’m going to have to stay vague on this point. It will make sense soon.

Went out drinking with my friend Jesper, who runs BlankPage. What was going to be a chill night in, sharing a bottle of wine, turned into a bar crawl that ended at a club. My head tells me that we consumed a beverage or two in the process. It’s all good.

One down, plenty to go, by which I mean that I’ve signed the contract for a new apartment. It’s short term with a possibility to extend for both parties. That suits me just fine at this moment in time. Freedom is needed.

The deadline I mentioned yesterday was extended until after lunch today. I’m just too nice for my own good.

Enjoy your Friday. Mine will be interesting.

This week is a long string of deadlines, but most of them are not on me. There are things in my current situation that has to be sorted out, and since there are other parties involved, I’ve felt the need to put down demands, and deadlines, so that things move forward. So far, so good, but a crucial one is coming up this afternoon and should it be missed, well, the song Cat People springs to mind, for some reason. The chorus, I’m sure.

Fun times.

The people I’ve been renting my Stockholm apartment from finally got it sold, which is good for them but less so for me since it means I’ve got to move out in a month or two. Needless to say, I’ve been apartment shopping the past week, and yesterday I think I found my next stop. If nothing funky happens while signing the contract tomorrow, I’m all set on the home wifi front for a while longer. That’s at least one weight off my shoulders, sorely needed, because all the crap amassing up there is starting to wear me down.

But hey, at least Stockholm is sunny and it’s like walking inside a witch’s cauldron, right?