It gets too dark at times, when the bad threaten to outweigh the good. I’ve been struggling with how to talk about such things here. The point of a daily journal like this one is that it’s an insight into my life, and a way for me to process things, get them rolling, and start the day on a – for lack of better word – better note. It was never about sharing everything, to bleed on your screen, or even to get your sympathy. I guess I’ve done some of that at times, and you can surely read more between the lines than I sometimes intended. That’s the way of the written word.
But this doesn’t work anymore. I’m skirting too many things, withholding important aspects of my life, and avoiding the sorrows of the day altogether. It doesn’t feel honest. I’m not starting the day on that better note, rather a cracked one feeding through a broken amplifier.
Some of those unnamed things are private, while others aren’t for me to share at all. There are things that probably would be good to talk about in the open, but frankly I can’t say I’m in a place where I can do that right now.
Don’t worry, I’m doing all right. Not everyone are.
I don’t want to add to an already dark today with more sickness and despair. So I’m going dark for a while, in this journal, and on social media too. If you need to get in touch with me, use email, or text me if you have my number. If you want to make sure that you don’t miss anything, or want to know how this plays out, just sign up for my newsletter below. I’ll announce any changes there, as well as everywhere else.
Right. That’s it. I’ll see you in a bit, okay?